I'm sorry, mum...

i've had an argument w/ mum on mon, feb 12, 2007.

i din intend to start de quarrel, i juz wanna let her noe how i feel n wat i'm thinking. tt dae her foot was bandaged, n my brother's not back from work, so she asked me to mopped de floor, n i agreed. she could see i was using lotsa effort to do it, so i tot of using tis as an opportunity to ask her if she does recognise de quality of work or de quantity, which is wat my brother has been doing, coz she's been comparing him w/ me. i'm nvr satisfied w/ his work, coz he's not been putting in effort. take spring cleaning 4 eg. he's supposed to be in chg of cleaning de windows. but he nvr change de water, n de windows' nvr considered clean.

so mum kept emphasizing tt it's an advantage 4 me 4 having de capability to produce quality work, n nvr ans my qn directly. i got so upset n i was asking her if she's been observing any changes in de hse n if she's been really putting in effort in keeping de hse clean, n as expected, she got mad @ me 4 critisizing her.

i noe she wud yell back @ me, coz of her conservative idea, tt no matter wat she does she's alwaz de mum, n nvr am i alloewed to criticize her. so while she's been nagging, i hid myself @ de storage rm so as not to let her disturbing my studying.

n 2dae, she voiced her feelings tt she's upset n feeling tt we're getting further n further apart, tt apparently we've nthng in common to communicate. y she's alwaz de oni 1 who can juz force others to emphatize her, understand her, n do wat she wanna c so as to make her happy, w/o having a position to be angry? n yet, 4 me, when i try to voice out my feelings to let her noe me beta, she'll start her defensive nature to shut me up, n if i can't take it anymore, yell back @ me.

i do admit tt there's really nthng in common tt we can tok abt. coz she's been telling me de trivial stuff tt i'm nvr interested in, n i cant tell her abt my sch work coz she can nvr help. i prefer to tok on smthng w/ more substance. n when i try to tell her abt my tots so tt we can understand each other beta, it's alwaz failed bcoz of her bad temper.

i really feel sorry 4 her, n tt's y my oni way not to make her angry is to keep quiet. but she's unhappy bcoz i'm not toking to her. arghhhhhhhhh........ wat can i do?!!!!!!!!!!!